Change. The art of transformation, the meaning of this or any alchemical process inevitably always is to transmute from one form to another. And that has always been the goal and that always been the understanding.

The actual experience is generally terrifying. There is this one part that wants everything to stay the way it is. There is another that knows we'll die if it does. In that fear and irrationality and the cabaret of demons it brings with it, is a twofold illusion. One, that we had any control here at all and two, that there is anything to fear.

I have always been given everything I need. I find myself exactly where I need to be. And for the most part, that happens easiest when I try not to interfere in this great Unfolding.

This space of letting go and Letting Things Change, I have become better at letting the world around me move. That also means Letting Myself Change. Obviously. The above is the below, the inside like the outside, blatantly obvious really. But I forgot. And I clung onto parts of myself that I knew I longer needed.

So this has been a time for Death. Which resulted in the card as well as a site design change.
In doing so I made the mistake of deleting the written content for Nigredo. Then panicked because it was gone, tried to find it again and then laughed because I had still not gotten this whole Letting Things Change thing.
I think I got it now.
Nigredo was the first shoot I ever did covered in paint. Its funny that the first would die with Death, but perfect in it's unfolding.

Humour is crucial.
As is an understanding that the construct of linear time is really just that. A construct. And you can let that go too. Maybe its a circle. Maybe it all happens at once. Try it out.

Death has been added to the Galleries